God's love is enough

I came across this today. 

I have faith that God will lead the way to someone who sees me the way He does. We will share the same love for God and his covenant.. and that will always be enough.

I just started a Twitter War 😅

Write about things that matter. Right now, what this guy does for a living is irrelevant to me but I sure hope he finds happiness in something pure and won't need him to be so evil. What matters though is if he can find that and I will be the first to say he is not hopeless, no one is.

If you check 'The Slut Whisperer', pardon my language, you will laugh at first then feel disgusted, hate him for a bit.. then pity him for the life he has to live in order to be famous and make money. Oh well at least that's what I think.

Twitter war will commence. I can only hope for the best for him. Even the worst people have a chance.

Good night!

Miracles

I was supposed to write yesterday about this until the Zzzz got the best of me. But today I wake up and I have my daily message from God and it is:

"When you're caught between the devil and the deep blue sea, do not abandon Me. Stand your ground and watch for My miracle."

My life at the moment is not perfect not easy, but with my faith in God getting stronger each day, it has become lighter and things are much better.

There are things I cannot explain. But I have two wonderful miracles from Him. I will forever be thankful for the burden He carried for me. 

When things seem impossible, hopeless.. There is always prayer. Things didn't get better in a snap, it was a process and it still is. I am so blessed, my family is so blessed and sometimes I think what did I do to deserve such blessings.

I look at others and they are in so much need and I ask the Lord what does He want me to do and He said: GIVE BACK.

I can only give as much as I can but I know I gave it with my whole heart. But I know the Lord will multiply it across all those in need, even more than I could ever give.

Each day, a miracle happens. We are far too busy with life to see it. We are too doubtful and cynic to believe in any of it. But God brings us trouble and pain and problems that seem impossible... and He tells us to stand our ground and wait for His hand to work.

I hope I can give back as much as I have received. I can't wait for everyone to experience their biggest miracle about to happen.

 

Spill, Keep, Drink

I am a million feelings wrapped into one.

I am overjoyed.

I am restless.

This life has definitely taken me by the hand and has laid me out on the battlefield. Some days there is happiness, some days.. sorrow. Sometimes its both at the same time. Glass half full/half empty theory? My personal belief is I am just thankful for the water. But do I drink, spill, or keep it at bay?

There is perfection in my life that goes by the name of Kyrie. There is also a great dysfunction in terms of my relationship with people that surround me. I deal with anxiety and I am distrustful of people most especially those who can hurt me, yet I still choose to love them for reasons I am unsure of. I worry what the norm is in these relationships especially now that I have a son. As a mother, it is easy to point out the do's and don't and it comes naturally that everything is for the kid's best interest. But as a significant other, it is more than difficult to say what is and what is not; to think one thing and have the other. Am I giving enough or too much? And asking will be pointless because your other half (or so you think) is just as confused as well. Am I being a good partner? I think I try too hard and expect too much. But I'll never knoww, will I?

It's hard to grow up with my dad as my male role model and now be with someone not even close to being like him. I constantly think he does something wrong or my dad was since they have different values, different choices.        

Is there a norm for these things? These relationships? Am I supposed to be okay with things even if it is hard and confusing and I feel it is wrong to ask? Is it okay to feel this way?

Then comes the part where I am happy momentarily because of the little things or the big & small gestures. Life is perfect for a while until the next confusing thing I can compare or think about, the doubt, the personal battles, choices we make, and questions..

I'm not sure when I'll get past these things, maybe when someone gives me an answer? Unsure, confused, happy, and complete at the same time.

If I spill it then I'll be giving away everything, including all the good. If I keep it at bay then there is stagnation.. and what good will that life be? Drink? Then take it all in by the horns... the laughs, the tears, the uncertainties and faults, the pain and the love... and all that exists in between.

Limits

I've reached it. I never thought I would but here I am now. It feels weird, as if I've never seen things as clearly before.

Mind you, I've always known. I fool myself sometimes to make it all better or try to make it work. But here I am, being told I am no one. After everything. There has to be no pain greater than this.

And with this, just after I put all my bets in... I come to a fold. 

Morose

That moment you find out you truly are replaceable.

Hope is shattered

When nothing indeed lasts.

On the Edge of Everything

This is me now.

I always thought I've been pushed too far to the lowest of lows but little did I know that was only the beginning.

This time I'm alone.

I have myself to rely on and think clearly for once.

This is me looking down.

Do I jump or will someone push me so I fall? 

This is me on the edge. 

I enjoy the view before I make a move.

This is the moment I learn.

I take in everything, I contemplate, I fly.